Your design is bad, and you should feel bad.

So, first off, I'd love to do this blog somewhere else, but sadly, Facebook, Youtube, and Twitch all block literally every single decent free host I've looked at, so I'm stuck here until either A. I can afford to pay for a web server or B. Get tired of it and stop posting crap here.

DISCLAIMER: Because these are fun to write, not because they're actually needed. Any implication of me actually having artistic skills, such as the mentions of me learning graphic design quickly, were worded in such a manner so as to get the point across. Any feelings that I look like a pretentious jerk when I write that kind of thing is unintended, but not entirely innacurate. Thank you for your time.

Anyway, the topic at hand as of today is another art-ish post. Not so much about doing it, but just my thoughts on art as a whole, as someone who is really only good at one particular area. Image editing.

I, for one, Do a lot of graphic design, as that video shows. It's really the reason I started drawing and doing 3d models occasionally. It is, however, also the main reason why I don't draw very often and don't enjoy it as much. Simple answer being: I'm just a lot better at graphic design than I am drawing, or even 3d modeling.

The fact that I find it really pretty easy to make a fairly well designed piece of artwork in an hour or two means that when I sit down to draw or 3d model and after 4 or 5 hours it still looks abysmal, I just don't want to keep going. It's partially a matter of me thinking "If I'm already better at graphic design, why should I bother with this?", Which is a pretty stupid question, and also "I'll never learn this" just because I picked up on design so quickly.

On the other hand, I can sit and think about some people I know who are fantastic when it comes to drawing, and seemed to pick that up in no time, but if you ask them to do any graphic design you're going to need a bucket. And not to carry water in.

To some extent, I think that is the one thing that I completely understand, but only annoys me more because I understand it. Seriously, I'd love to be able to pick up a pencil and paper and draw something awesome, but I just don't have that natural born talent to learn how to draw quickly like I do to learn to 3d model or make graphics.

Of course, the reason I have a hard time learning to draw is probably mostly because the extent of my use of the muscles you use for drawing is... moving a mouse. Seriously. If you're playing a game like you're supposed to draw, you tend to use your shoulder and elbow much more than your wrist, which is how you tend to do things when you draw.

For one because it's healthier, and two because it is actually easier to make the movements you want if you use your whole arm, since the wrist can only move in an arcing motion, and not a straight line.

The worst part is, I know if I sat down and set aside an hour or two a day, I could probably learn to draw in no time, because I just learn quickly. The issue is that I can't make myself do it. I come up with every excuse not to do it, and sometimes I just flat out forget that I was going to do it because I get sidetracked doing something else and don't think about it.

I need something to follow me around and shout at me if I don't draw when I set aside time to do so. Something like a shark. A shark that can walk and breathe air. Yes. This is what I need in my life.

Of course, it doesn't help that I really listen to music way too much. I could listen to music all day every day and be perfectly happy and also have massive hearing loss. I'm not addicted to Demon Hunter, I promise.

And this isn't counting the album I just bought from their lead singer's new side project.

But aside from that only being 1/6th of the music I have on my PC to listen to, I really don't do much aside from art and gaming, and gaming I don't do very often. Probably 5% of the time I'm at my computer is spent gaming. The other 95% is divided so: 80% music, 5% writing, 5% art, 4.5% video editing, 0.5% useful things.

Those are barely exaggerations.

So, since I'm actually going to stop being a lazy freak and go outside today, I'm going to close this up with a simple message.

I DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM.

On a side note, it's pretty great having some small bit of a sense of humor again. I'm actually somewhat happy for the first time in over a year, and it's awesome.

To once again do the cliche music quote thing, the best verse in all of music, because it's a good reminder that I need sometimes, and I feel like a lot of people can appreciate it, even if they don't like Ye Olde Metalle Musick.

Tearing through these days I find the tolerance to strive and push on

I know what lies beyond this life for me is already won

No one can take away the blood that covers over my fall

Without the blood of perfect life I know I'm nothing at all

So now I reign forever hallowed in eternity's hand

No man can shake me from the everlasting ground that I stand.